Why I Stayed...? A Gothic Review of Life?

My goal is to talk to my 'self' and tell it the story of insecurities and prejudices I had before my life turned to shambles. I tried so hard to spiral down into the abyss that I completely forgot to take a moment and live. It was finding myself staring down the abyss that I suddenly got reminded of all the idiotic happenings and circumstances that led me to this moment – inability to grieve properly for my father, first serious relationship that ended in a heartbreak and bad financial decisions.